I’m more than just a “shell” — September 21, 2007

I’m more than just a “shell”

I’m more than just a “shell”
more than just a “costume”
that insiders come out and put on.

What am I?
Who am I?
I am host…
but am I really separate?
or just a reflection of everyone else?
what is my job?
I share my job
I feel what they feel
when they come forward
I no longer feel separate
am I ever really separate
yes…so I am more than just a shell
more than just a “costume”
but what exactly am I?
I seem to be different from the ones inside
but am I really?
I am both an actor in my own right
and yet I also seem to be the holder of others
the “shell” or “costume”
what is my reality?

I’m more than just a “shell”
or a “costume” with no voice
until someone comes along
and gives me one!

I am my own
and yet I am not
who am I?
what am I?
am I just a prop?
useful only to others
and not to myself?

I’m more…aren’t I????????

 

© September 21, 2007

Waves of Pain — January 24, 2007

Waves of Pain

Wave upon wave of pain
Beat against my heart
Pounding and pounding
As if to rend it apart

I gasp and I shudder
I moan and I rock
Like a boat without rudder
Nor mooring nor dock

Beset in a storm
With the wind and rain
Coming against me
Is all in vain?

I yearn for an anchor
To grab hold of to steady
This ship of my healing
Until I am ready

To face what it is
That makes my heart pound
As I try to look at
Things that astound

No one can see it
Nor can they feel
The intensity of pain
That causes me to reel

Like a drunken sailor
On a wave driven ship
Tossed to and fro
And ill-equipped

To handle life’s challenges
In a steady way
Living in yesterday
Along with today

But I know a Captain
With skills so fair
He takes on the Wheel
And He’ll get me there

He will take me
Upon the high seas
Away from this storm
With its miseries

January 24, 2007 ©

Thank You — January 11, 2007

Thank You

Thank You my dear Abba
For giving this new day
And for Your love and patience
That You show me everyday.

May I waste not
The precious time You give
But for Your honor and glory
May I each day live.

Thank You dear Yeshua
For all You’ve done for me
May I always live the gift
You gave so painfully.

May I always walk
In the Ruach You have sent
And may I always be aware
Of how each day is spent.

Thank You Ruach HaKodesh
For Your wisdom and Your love,
And for the many blessings
You send me from above.

Thank You that You show me
How to live each day
If I will but listen
As Your voice explains the way.

January 11, 2007

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